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It’s nice to just send something out into space, so much more vague and abstract (and pleasantly so) than having my thoughts in print, right there, in black and white. Blogs are on the web, which is some ephemeral technology that I don’t fully understand anyway, and can’t really comprehend in the same way that I can’t really comprehend a billion dollars. Meaningless. Therefore I write all kinds of things that I probably would never say or write in real life, because it tickles me and it doesn’t really do any harm anyway because in a few days the entry will be buried in the archives and the three people that have read it will be busy with other things.

Thursday, April 27, 2006

Resolutions

This is why resolutions suck. I have always been anti-resolution, because they set you up for failure. I learned this early in my life, as is evidenced by an old picture frame I have. I was given this frame as a birthday present when I was 8 or 9. On the back, there were lines for the owner to write a nice little bit about the picture, or what have you. Here is what I wrote (mind you, I was eight): "I will try to change this picture every year. But I probably won't be able to." What an attitude for an eight-year old, eh? Jason claims this says a lot about me. I don't know where my attitude came from; even I think I was a little young to be so fatalistic (okay, maybe pessimistic, although I prefer not to think of it that way). In fact, this still appears to me to be mostly just realistic...

But back to resolutions, and the trouble they cause. Like the one I made last week that said I was going to think of something wonderful and witty to post on my blog, and do so regularly and with vigor. Yep, I set myself up. Even before I got Jessie's snide little comment (teasing, I'm teasing you, Jessie), I was thinking the same thing. Another resolution down the drain. Is there anything more depressing? Even when I was eight, I was wise enough to know the value of giving yourself an out, a loophole, an admission of possible failure right up front.

Oh, and by the way, this is my sorry excuse for a post this week. Someday I'll have something to say...

2 Comments:

Blogger Jessie said...

haha! oh, i'm laughing and i'm sorry. it's your creative side that doesn't allow such strict discipline (shoot, i don't even know how to spell "discipline"...i had to look it up). and anyway, if i wasn't in your office talking to you half the day, everyday--you'd probably get a lot more blogging done!
:)-

10:56 PM  
Blogger erin said...

yeah, that's it, it's my creativity's fault! if i wasn't so creative, i'd be a lot more disciplined. i should've come up with that one a long time ago! :)

10:15 AM  

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